life is tough.. if i wasn't on bond, i probably would find it easier to give up..

i suddenly had a reflection a few days ago when i wore my old chiong sua boots.. even though i've been wearing my goretex boots for almost 2 months and it is definitely more comfortable compared to the normal boots, i still feel that the old pair of boots had the most familiar feeling..

think about it, i walked/ran about 80km in them.. this pair of boots? barely 10.. when you've been thru so much with something, u find it hard to give up, even if they are a little worn out and parts are torn, even if they aren't as comfortable as it used to be, they are still something that you've been thru alot with..

wtf lah, both public holidays got assignments to do..

know wad's the saddest thing? sunday is family visiting day.. all my platoon-mates have family members coming.. when i asked my dad if he wanted to come, he said "for wad? tmr u just go back den sunday is only 3 days apart.." fuck man..

whine, whine, complain, complain. is this the way new year's eve should be spent? NO! so i shall stop here, no more whining till i'm back to the place tmr.

wtf? i wonder how do people take it. i personally feel it's the toughest thing i've done so far. 10 more days and it'll be all over.

finally i started packing my stuffs.. i started talking about packing like 2 wks ago but it's only today that i really act on it.. tsktsk, my torchlight is missing and i searched high and low for it, before recalling that i've lent it to MR CHEEZ. WHERE IS MY TORCHLIGHT?

haha monday's coming soon, back to the camp days. stay in isn't that bad u know, free food, free lodging, pple to make sure u exercise and dont laze off, save time on travelling.. one thing i really dread is the lecture! fall asleep = confinement.. =(

tsktsk, when u think too much about something, u dont get started doing it.

my first ippt gold in ns.. feeling good.. my results

SBJ: 250 (capped)
Sit ups: 47
Shuttle Run: 10.0s
Pull ups: 10
2.4 : 9mins 30 secs

hahaha!

hmm, it's my passion but i may consider to give it up.. we'll see how it goes..

You never close your eyes any more
When I kiss your lips
And there's no tenderness like before
In your fingertips
You're trying hard not to show it baby
But baby, baby believe me I know it
You've lost that loving feeling
Oh, that loving feeling
You've lost that loving feeling
Now it's gone, gone, gone Whoa-oh

lol, this part keeps getting stuck in my head.. it's from the show topgun, where tom cruise and his buddies sang it in a pub trying to hook up with a girl.. haha

this is the link to that short clip..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hQtGZKdW0Xc&feature=related

topgun, even though u know that the show is bullshit, u cant help falling in love with it.. that's the irony in life eh?

it's pretty amazing, i'm sticking to my exercise regime.. haha.. i certainly feel fitter, all these done in preparation for OCS.. will be going in on the 22nd of this month.. tsktsk, i'm having the mixed feelings again, not knowing what to expect when i go in, yet a little excited.. regimentation is going to kick in, and that is something i dont exactly enjoy, at the same time, i cant wait for it to end and proudly declare i've "been there, done that"..

it's been some time now, and there's still a little ill feeling about being a drop out.. haha..


today, i saw a couple in their late 50s or early 60s.. it was kind of sweet when they still held hands and walked slowly on the roads.. i've always thought it was nice and sweet to live in bliss, and it certainly takes a lot to be able to last so long.. well, i should stick to my plan of adopting a dog, and after that, maybe another dog.. LOL!